A few days ago, I moved my "wanna-be author" blog to this new link and title. I think it reflects a more positive attitude about my future as a writer to say that "eventually I will be a published author" than to say "I sure wish I was a writer!"
So here we are. I am trying to wrap my head around a new way of thinking that will open my mind and free my creative juices a bit. I tend to get a little discouraged when I think about wanting to get something published. Not because of the intimidation of submitting something to a publishing house (I'm not there, yet, you have to FINISH something before you can submit it, I'm fairly sure!) or because I don't feel like I am skilled enough. I feel confident in my abilities, and I am a fast learner so if I got to learn from mistakes or bad writing decisions, that would be great. It's because everywhere I go, constantly, I meet other people who consider themselves yet-to-be-published authors. Some surprise me, some astound me and others, I'm not surprised, I just have one of those sarcastic voices in my head saying, "everyone's an author", the same way my photographer husband says, "everyone's a photographer...".
I need to not worry about the sheer volume of manuscripts, books and authors there are out in the market. I need to not feel competitive about this. I need to just write for the love of writing and when something gets finished, clean it up, submit it and keep writing. That's what I need to do. I can't reduce the number of people (women, mostly, but men, too) who also think they are good enough writers to do it professionally. I don't have control over when/where or even IF I ever get published, not directly, anyway. But "Failing to try is the same as trying to fail", right? Right.
I'm trying to accept that there is a lot of competition. A LOT. But that's okay. If what I write is good enough, it won't matter that there are 45 million others like me. And the main thing is that I love writing. I just love it. I need to write for the joy and the mental release and the addiction of writing. The rest is just gravy, anyway.